FIA

sometimes I'm tired because I feel like I have spent my whole day gasping for air. it's like a 50 pound weight is sitting om my chest and no matter how I try I can't seem to catch my breath. sometimes I feel a dull aching in my chest and everytime there's a moment of silence I try to fill up so that I can't hear the wind whistling through the hole in my heart. sometimes I cry so hard that I can't breath and I feel like I'm going to throw up and sometimes I just miss him, I miss everything about him and I want him back so bad. he can't be gone bevause I'm not finished. I'm not ready to let him go. I'm not prepared to live my life without you.